I just got out of the shower.. and let me tell you.. i will not be showing with anyone for quite some time (not that i had any near future intentions of doing so). after washing my hair my shower looked like a murder had just taken place. im not even kidding when i tell you.. RED. EVERYWHERE. now im curled up in bed watching the last few episodes of dexter that ive yet to finish, eating a back of flips and sipping on a glass of wine. single has been treating me amazingly. its really given me a chance to work on myself, inside and out. my whole life ive jumped from relationship to the next to feel some sort of security. some sort of belonging. to feel wanted and accepted. now stepping back and taking it all in, i think it was a way for me to hide. hide my insecurities, my fears, my weaknesses. as much as i long to be in a relationship right now, i think im going to be single for a while.. and for once i can actually say that im happy about that.